When I first started this blog I was going through a very difficult time battling bad anxiety which also brought depression along for the ride too. It was an awful time, my life had gone from being so happy and positive after getting a new job, finding the man of my dreams and just generally feeling on top of the world to suddenly feeling like I had been stripped of my soul for no reason whatsoever. I had no passion for anything – even the things I had always loved like food, design and travel just didn’t interest me anymore, I just wanted to hide away and give up on everything. It’s really hard to get your head around how someone can suddenly change almost overnight but unless you’ve experienced it yourself I don’t think people will ever understand how much it can negatively affect someone’s life.
I had liked the idea of starting a blog for a long time but never really got round to doing it until I had hit this wall. I knew I needed something to give me focus, a little project to work on that would help me forget about the way I was feeling for just a little bit. I wanted to use the blog as a therapeutic exercise to keep my mind occupied but also allow me to document all the good things that I experienced day to day, allowing me to look back and reflect on them when I was having a bad day and felt like I had nothing to feel happy about. Which is why I created my highlights of the week posts. I also wanted to use it as an avenue to share my experiences of anxiety, which I felt might, in time help me overcome it.
I want my blog to be as real as possible and share the good, the bad and the ugly because frankly that’s life isn’t it!
Luckily I am now in a place where I feel like I have moved on from this so much! Life is getting back to how it used to be. Don’t get me wrong there are still days where I find it hard and sometimes worry that things could take a turn for the worse again but I won’t let that stop me.
I think the blog has really helped with my recovery over the last year and I would recommend it to anyone to try! I hope that other people going through the same thing can relate to my blog but also find it inspiring – to know that things do get better and you can enjoy your life the way you deserve. It’s all about believing in yourself!
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